My April relapse must have been triggered by existing lesions as there is still quite some activity. But yeah, this is good news and considered the limited drug choice, I will stay on Rebif for now until Tecfidera is available in The Netherlands. I can’t wait for an oral drug as the injecting business is a pain at times. Not to mention the bruises, it didn’t get any better in the past year.
The not so good news – my C2 spinal cord lesion (picture above, the very top one. The white spot is my lesion and the black surrounding it is my pretty spinal cord).
Trouble maker. As you can see in the MRI image, that lesion blocks about 1/3 of my spinal cord and causes most of my MS symptoms like the numbness,paresthesia, muscle weakness and pain. And so on. It’s basically a nerve traffic jam as my brain doesn’t receive the full information needed at the same time. Luckily I got only one spinal cord lesion so far and it didn’t grow, but you can imagine what happens if there are more or larger ones. If this lesion would block it completely, I’d be paralyzed from the neck down. The spinal cord is very tricky but unfortunately not as clever as the brain. Our brain has the fabulous ability to find new connective routes to a certain degree.
I asked my neurologist if he thinks my symptoms would improve or ( wishful thinking) resolve as I always thought that’s the case with RRMS. Turns out, it’s not 😉
I really needed to hear “I don’t think it will improve” and that’s exactly what I got. Why? Sometimes, bad news can feel like a relief. It was the same when I heard that I have MS. Finally some facts, something you can work on and learn to life with. Adapt. Overcome.
But I’m also determined to prove him wrong and am working hard on improving every day. I love a good challenge, it’s on 🙂
I swim at least 3 times a week and am not stopping, even if my arms decide to do so every now and then. Thanks to my dog Ruby I walk at least 3 hours a day to keep my legs strong. Yoga – very much looking forward to my yin yoga and chakra meditation workshop next week. Yeah, these chakras need to be fixed and opened 🙂
New on my health team is Roel, my physiotherapist who will help me to build up strength. There is daily “homework” required ( lifting weights to strengthen my forearm muscles etc) so I decided to order some dumbbells and a thicker fitness mat. I can’t practice with wine bottles as he recommended forever 🙂 Great excuse for shopping, loving the new Reebok line.
Last but not least – I always knew I suffer from monkey mind. What I wasn’t aware of so far, is the Angry Bird in my brain. Check this out, it’s obvious 🙂