Aya- WHAT?!?


Not to be confused with ayurveda, these are two completely different things ūüėČ

In case you never heard of it, ayahuasca is a ¬†sacred plant spirit medicine and hallucinogenic¬†brew ( containing DMT, hence classified a “drug” in many countries but that’s definitely not how I ¬†see it) made out of a vine and other plant based ingredients. It is used in traditional spiritual ceremonies among the indigenous people of the Amazon basin for at least 5000 years¬†to heal all kinds of disease.

Many believe it is the greatest natural healing agent there is, that’s why ¬†thousands ¬†of people with terminal or chronic disease, cancer, ¬†addictions, depressions or traumas visit the Amazon each year to try out ayahuasca for some kind of relief or healing. More and more Western style “clinics” open for special ayahuasca retreats, there has been an alternative medicine¬†tourism boom in recent years and it seems to be even a strong competition for the Machu Picchu in the years coming.

I don’t want to go too much into my own “research” details in this post ( or it’ll be the longest post in history, crashing the entire WordPress server ūüėČ ) but it looks as if ayahuasca might have not only a very positive influence on the CNS and inflammations BUT even play a key role in neuroregeneration.

WOW, wouldn’t it be great if a “plant” could actually fix what’s damaged in our (MS) brains?

There seem to be so many benefits it would be a shame not to try some sort of “healing” with ayahuasca. I believe that there are¬†actually plenty of “cures” ¬†out there in nature that are used by indigenous people for ages and we simply don’t know about it or – we’re not told as it’s not profitable for the “big players” , especially if we could all grow our own medicine. HA!

According to this fab article in the New Yorker, Ayahuasca is the drug of choice for the “age of kale” ( which made me laugh so hard as I think ¬†it’s totally ¬†true!)

“Ayahuasca, like kale, is no joy ride. The majority of users vomit‚ÄĒor, as they prefer to say, ‚Äúpurge.‚ÄĚ And that‚Äôs the easy part. ‚ÄúAyahuasca takes you to the swampland of your soul,‚ÄĚ Like juicing‚ÄĒanother Kale Age method of expedient renewal‚ÄĒayahuasca is appreciated for its efficiency. Enthusiasts often say that each trip is like ten years of therapy or meditation.

The first time I heard about ayahuasca was about 3 years ago and I was stunned. First of all, why didn’t I ever hear anything about it and second of all, this might be THE “medicine” for the time being. I read everything I could find, watched a lot of documentaries and read the testimonials of people who felt way better or even “healed” from all kinds of diseases thanks to ayahuasca.

It looks like this year the first FDA approved trial to treat depression with ayahuasca will start but there are even a few more waiting for the official trial process and looking into everything from PTSD treatment to addictions.

Ayahuasca is becoming more and more knows, even Netflix has a FEW documentaries ( and a “Chelsea does…” episode) ¬†on it and according to some articles I read there must be a real boom and ayahuasca ceremonies any given night in all major cities around the world. ¬†It’s even possible to do it here in the Netherlands as it’s legal because of the freedom of religion. Sometimes I feel ¬†like I’m one of the last people on this planet getting to experience it as everyone I told about it has done it or knows at least 5 people that have done it and ALL of them had a great, mostly ¬†life changing experience once out of the dark “swampland of the soul”.

The ayahuasca brew must taste like the worst thing there is and chances are high that you’ll have a hard time, facing your worst fears, living through you worst emotions and nightmares again, not to mention the “purging” ( vomiting) and most likely even s*** your pants.¬†The “ceremony” itself must be one of the most terrifying things there is and that’s what kept me away.

Until now.

I’ve never experienced with other “drugs” than alcohol, I guess a J√§gerbomb must have been the craziest thing I ¬†did in my life and if you know me personally or follow my blog, I can’t even handle the other plant medicine, marijuana, ¬†without getting an anxiety attack ( blog post about that self-experiment ūüėČ ) ¬† as I hate the feeling of losing control. Here, I said it, I’m still a complete control freak and perfectionists and it’s soooo hard to let go of these things.

Now – guess who will be sitting in a ceremonial “maloca” ( ceremonial hut ), most likely “purging” all the time, ¬†in the Peruvian Amazon with a very experienced group of Shipibo shamans in 3 weeks?

Yep. Yours truly. The control freak – and Mr. X, this will be a great relationship test, lol.

All for the sake of self-experimenting as everything I researched about ayahuasca over the past ¬†years sounds too good to be true that even the uncomfortable part doesn’t scare me away anymore.

We will actually start our 4 week trip to Peru with a 9 day ayahuasca retreat and 4 (!!) ¬†ceremonies – if it is true that each session is like 10 years of therapy/ meditation I should be (hopefully) ¬†done after that ( as I’m only 38 ūüėČ ) but I am completely aware that I also need to “work” on many issues while there and ¬†in the future.


To get the most out of the ayahuasca medicine, you need to follow a special “dieta” for at least 2 weeks prior and a few days after the retreat. On top of that ( hello old overachiever ūüėČ ) ¬†I already started ¬†a “Whole 30”¬†reset 2 weeks ago, didn’t drink any alcohol for 3 weeks and will start with the real ayahuasca¬†“dieta” next Sunday. ¬†Luckily my normal diet is pretty close to it as the dieta allows fish and eggs but no (red) meat, no dairy, no sugar, no fried food and no gluten. On top of that is a long list of other no no’s like coffee, black pepper, avocado, spinach or pineapple to name a few.

But the dieta doesn’t only concern food – our “mind” needs to be “clean” as well so mainstream media, negative- feeling movies/ books/ posts/ people and social media need to be considered, too. ¬†I already unfollowed people who always share negative or passive-aggressive posts on Facebook as I really can’t and won’t deal with that energy anymore as I feel it’s ¬†pulling me down.

The last part of the dieta, a technical one, will happen during the retreat as there’s NO reception and NO wifi, we also shouldn’t use technical devices while on the retreat and just BE in the Amazon.

Just BE ourselves. Our true selves.

We’ll start our retreat at¬†Nimea Kaya Healing Center on Feb 26 and if you’re wondering what we do there for 9 days next to “purging” , overcoming and healing there’s a whole program set up, from plant walks and helping with brewing the ayahuasca we will be using for the ceremonies, meditation, yoga, floral baths, super healthy dieta meals, visits to the local community and a school the retreat supports to integration circles and painting.

I feel I’m ¬†in very good hands with this center and they have already treated a few MS patients. The only concern they had was my MS drug as of course – you shouldn’t take any drugs/ medications or even supplements while on the “dieta” and some ( like antidepressants, any SSRI¬īs and MAOI’s) are dangerous or even lethal when mixed with ayahuasca. The staff is great, they checked all ingredients of Tecfidera and although they’d rather have me not take it while there, we found a compromise that I won’t be taking the evening dosage on the 4 nights of the ayahuasca ceremony. ¬†( and yes, I even got it double checked so it’s save )

My main intention for the retreat is to “heal” and learn how to fully “love myself” and in my opinion, these two are one.

We cannot heal without (self) love.

I personally believe that emotional blockages and traumas make us sick, all the “stuff” that happened to us along the way and we simply pushed it away for too long. I know that a lot of pain will come up during the ceremonies and that I might have to “relive” certain ¬†situations and memories.

I meditate a lot and learned the past 1.5 years that how I emotionally feel directly affects my health.

Autoimmune diseases are like a non stop friendly fire, I basically attack myself all the time. Next to MS I was diagnosed with  two additional chronic/ autoimmune disease without a known cause ( granuloma annulare dx 1991 and endometriosis dx 2003) that appeared after  emotional or very stressful life events. Most fellow MS patients I know have at least one more autoimmune disease.

These “friendly fires” inside my body ¬†I ¬†link directly to that self love issue ¬†and I think that’s why way more woman than men suffer from autoimmune disease. It’s getting harder and harder as a woman to keep up with the “standards” and being a perfectionist doesn’t help.

All the things I “must” be.

We women “must” have the perfect career, relationships, families, looks, bodies – you name it. I’m curious to see what will happen the next decade, autoimmune disease must explode thanks to our society and especially social media.

Time to heal myself from these thoughts and social constructs and start living my life.

MY life.

Finishing this post with some of my favourite ayahuasca videos, from science to the real experience if you got curious.


Happy & healthy 2018!


Happy and Healthy(tier) New Year to you!

A little late as my MacBook decided to give me the “blue” screen and stopped working a few days ago so here’s a short 2017 review via my phone.

I celebrated New Year’s Eve in one of my favourite cities, Istanbul, trip #4 in December after a short visit to Athens and Vilnius to tell my MS story followed by a trip “home” to my mum in Germany. Busy times!

Now I finally got some quiet time to reflect on 2017, one of the most intense & best years of my life so far and I already have a plan in place to make 2018 even more spectacular and healing ūüėČ

I’m thankful for the experience I gained as team member of Mission Summit and our attempt to climb Mont Blanc as the first MS team. If you follow me on Social Media you already know that we had to return after a night at the Tete Rousse hut ( 3167m) because of severe weather. As I trained months for this event I was somewhat disappointed but also know all the hard training paid off. I’m definitely getting fitter the older I get ūüėČ I also had a small emotional breakdown climbing up to that last hut as I remembered where I’ve been on this very day 5 years ago – in neurological rehab, sleeping 18 hours a day and most likely doing water gymnastics with a right arm that didn’t cooperate – well, I could not even hold my cutlery and there I was, climbing the highest mountain in the Alps. CRAZY! I learned so much about my body during that time, especially that I can really push way harder than I thought.

Mission Summit is planning another expedition in November 2018 – this time to climb one of the “7 Summit”, Mount Kilimanjaro – and of course I’m thinking about joining, it’s great to have a goal to train for ¬†ūüėČ

The intense summer didn’t end there – shortly after I returned from the expedition it turned out that I have a bit of skin cancer ¬†( the “old people” kind, a basal cell carcinoma) on my collar bone. Bummer, but life goes on and it was luckily nothing dramatic.

My surgery was scheduled right after my yearly MRI that turned out to be fabulous – stable, no new lesions and last years “surprise lesion” was hardly to see so I think I’m on the right track with my DMD ¬†and my mix of meditation, breath work, sound journeys, exercise, diet, supplements and so on paid off.

The mini surgery was quick and easy, the only real downside was that I couldn’t ¬†do CrossFit or heavy weight lifting for a while. Stubborn as I am, I tried ¬†( of course ūüėČ) and ripped each time a few stitches so in the end it took about 6 weeks until the scar healed a bit.

For the first 3 months of 2018 I got already a full plan in place as I need to train and prepare for my next “project” that will be both, a healing and adventure trip to Peru ūüôĆ

Quick preview below and more to come in the next weeks but I can tell you already it’s going to be epic one way or another ( and for some a bit too extreme ūüėā ).

I’m always busy making memories and this trip combines a few things I really, really wanted to try and do for many years.

As they say, all we have is NOW…


5th MSanniversary

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Happy diagnosis anniversary to me ūüôā

Yes, a happy one as this is how I feel¬†on most days. ¬†Sometimes I wonder if I’ m a real weirdo as I usually wake up feeling super happy, lucky, but most of all, grateful.

It’s been 5 years and I can’t stop laughing as I type this! Gosh, I would have NEVER thought to be where I am now 5 years ago.

The past year has been the very best MS year so far, finally!

First of all – a quick health recap. Not much to report as I feel the best I have since my diagnosis despite that new lesion they found on the MRI in September and I blame that one on a very stressful time in my personal life. I don’t have any new symptoms and can’t ¬†say that I’m bothered by my existing symptoms – I also don’t focus on them. Energy flows where attention goes so I rather focus on other things ūüôā¬†However – I also learned when these symptoms are a warning sign that I overdid it again or – that my body simply has a suboptimal day and needs a break.

I also ¬†started to meditate on a daily ¬†(these days only “regular”) basis last year and went to two Dr. Joe Dispenza workshops, one here in Amsterdam and to the Advanced Workshop in Mexico where I met so many inspiring people.

Still sticking to a meat, dairy ( except every few months when I’m having a fancy dinner somewhere I’d go for a bit of cheese instead of dessert), soy and gluten free diet but reintroduced eggs and coconut oil which isn’t allowed on the “Overcoming Multiple Sclerosis Diet” so I guess I just follow my “own” diet and needs now and truly ¬†learned to listen to my body.

In addition to a healthy diet I still take my daily supplements ( Vitamin D, B12, zinc, fish oil, magnesium, non-acidic vitamin C, super greens powder, Sugarbearhair gums ) and also supplement my protein intake with vegan/gluten & soy free protein powder shakes, especially after working out.

I joined a Wim Hof workshop and finished it with an ice bath Р it felt so amazing I decided to stick to a cold shower regime and even made it to FreezLab for a whole body cry session in Р110C / -166 F a few times !

I must confess I still don’t do yoga on a regular basis but have been to Garth McLean‘s Iyengar workshop in November and will also join one next week as he’ll be in the Netherlands again. Can’t do everything ūüėČ

In March I went skiing for the first time in 5 years and even surprised my dad as everything went very well, I really love the cold, snow and winter as my body feels super normal in these temperatures and I hope to ski more often next winter.

Mountains – I also started indoor climbing to prepare for our Mission Summit expedition to Mont Blanc and even passed my top rope climbing exam.

The biggest change of all ¬†has happened in my working out routine as I started CrossFit in August 2016 and that was my game changer. I tell you, the first weeks were a fight as I had the worst fatigue after each workout resulting in ¬†3h siestas but now, 9 months later, I feel like I totally own it ( most of the times) and the progress I’ve made is incredible. Just to name one, when I first started I couldn’t really jump ( MS related, it felt like I’m pretty much glued to the floor the past years but hey, that’s also pretty much an invisible symptom as how often do you jump on a daily basis ) and started with a very low box about the height of a shoe box. Since April I jump the regular height for ladies which is 50 cm/ 20 inches. I ¬†go to CrossFit 3-4 times a week and it is one of the most important things to me. Not only do I love to challenge myself mentally/ physically but I also met so many super nice people there and made a bunch of new friends I also hang out with outside of the box.

The second BIG thing that happened in the past 12 months is the Mission Summit expedition that will start in exactly 4 weeks, flying out to Geneva on July 16th, wohooo! I will climb my very first mountain! Well, actually we’ll climb 2 mountains and both are above 4000m ( 13.100 ft), the Grand Paradiso in Italy and Mont Blanc in France. BOOM. Moving mountains for MS as the first team of MS patients to summit Mont Blanc ( we’re 4 with and 4 without MS) , if you would like to donate for the study “Project Y” at VUmc MS Research Center we’re fundraising for, please visit my page.

I’ll celebrate my 38th birthday in Chamonix on a glacier learning how to use the ice axe, crampons and navigate safely along the crevasses.

Thanks to all the training for the expedition I’m most likely in the fittest shape I’ve been in a long while and this is just the beginning.

5 years ago ( actually up to 3 years ago) I couldn’t do ANYTHING with my right arm and hand, slept 18h a day and considered moving back to the small village I come from in Germany, kind of giving up as I thought well, that’s it. ¬†I’m glad I didn’t as I would have missed this fantastic life and I’m loving every second of it.

Got to go, representing Mission Summit today at the largest MS event in the Netherlands, Arena MoveS. We even got a mobile climbing wall where everyone is welcome to have a go. Later in the afternoon I’ll climb a few hundred stairs along the football arena with my 12kg backpack. Unbelievable. I feel so lucky and blessed ‚̧

Just thinking about how strange it is that Arena MoveS is on June 25, ¬†my 5 year diagnosis anniversary and that the Mission Summit expedition starts on July 17, my birthday. Synchronicity at its best. I guess I’m right where I’m supposed to be at this point in my life. All is good.

Here’s to ¬†the next 5 years and new, bigger adventures. Already thinking about what to do after I return from Mont Blanc, need to find a new challenge to keep up my 6 days a week training routine ūüôā

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Mont Blanc climb itinerary

The countdown is on, only 3 months to go until the Mission Summit Mont Blanc 2017 expedition and I wanted to share our climbing itinerary with you.

On Sunday, July 16, 2017 we fly out from Amsterdam to Geneva, a day before the expedition officially starts¬†to make sure we‚Äôre all well rested (no matter how ‚Äúfit‚ÄĚ we seem, travelling with MS still gets me every time so the more time to recover and to “arrive”, the better)

Day 1 ( Monday, July 17, 2017) Arrival in Chamonix ( and my birthday, wohoo!)

Day 2 ( Tuesday, July 18, 2017) Mer de Glace ( 2100m)

We will meet our guides, get the equipment ( like harness, crampons, ice pick but also the mountaineering boots that most of us rent as they are very $$$, fingers crossed they have a comfy pair that fits me) and take a train to Mer de Glace (¬†‚Äúsea of ice‚ÄĚ, it‚Äôs the largest glacier in France, 200m deep and 7km long) for altitude training and to practise how to walk¬†with crampons on the ice.

Day 3 ( Wednesday, July 19, 2017) Rifugio Vittorio Emanuele II ( 2735m)

Leaving for Aosta Valley in Italy via the Mont Blanc tunnel ( approximate travel time 2h) where we‚Äôll start a heavy 3h long hike to Rifugio Vittorio Emanuele II, a traditional Italian mountain hut first build in 1884 and as I was told, loved by sociable Italians who like to share their climbing adventures till late at night over a glass of red wine or two ( I already ¬†like that part very much or at least the idea as I guess I won’t be drinking ūüėČ ) – except the climbers who plan to summit the highest mountain in Italy early the following day which is the¬†Monte Bianco aka Italian side of Mont Blanc.

Day 4 ( Thursday, July 20, 2017) Ascent to Gran Paradiso ( 4061m) 

We‚Äôll start our climb up the Gran Paradiso ( highest mountain entirely within Italy) ¬†by moonlight. The first hour of the tour is going to be¬†tricky as we need to make our way through a very rocky terrain with big boulders. By sunrise we‚Äôll attach our crampons and harnesses that connect us to the rope. Safety first! ¬†( I hope it won’t be too scary, that’s why I’m already busy with taking climbing classes each Monday).¬†The route leads us right over the glacier¬† and the higher we climb, the steeper and tougher it gets (hmm).

Once the sun is up we will hopefully have a great view to make up for all the hard work! After climbing a couple of hours we get a first glimpse of the top of Gran Paradiso. The last 100m to the summit ask for a lot of focus and concentration as we’ll¬†reach the top over a very steep ridge of rocks¬†– I guess by then everyone will know for sure if they are afraid of heights or not. ( After watching this video I’m not so sure of it anymore, kind of made me dizzy but I’ll find out!).

On top there’ll be a picturesque 360-degree view on the Alps famous mountain range Рif the weather plays along.

Descent  into the valley using the same (very steep and very scary)  route , a quick stop at the hut for some food ( and most likely a sneaky sip of vino) and back to Chamonix/ France where we’ll arrive around dinner time.

Day 5 ( Friday, July 21, 2017) REST

Rest from the last couple of days, we can chill out at the chalet or explore Chamonix for a bit. This rest day is extremely important to recover from climbing the top of Gran Paradiso  ( 4061m)  before we attempt to climb Mont Blanc ( as you know, most of us climbers have MS so rest is very important)

In the afternoon we‚Äôll practise again some more rock climbing techniques for the ascent of the very steep Grand Couloir ( ‚Äúlarge gulley‚ÄĚ) at a local climbing garden. This spot is well known for accidents and¬†notorious for falling rocks so it‚Äôs vital to learn some extra safety rules. It’s really the most dangerous part of the ascent/ descent and to be honest, I¬†really fear and respect the “gulley”.

After the training we’ll have a meeting with the guides to discuss the strategy for the next days, build the climbing teams ( teams of 2 climbers and 1 guide), get further advice and check what needs to be in the backpacks for the following days during the ascent ( hard shell clothes, extra warm layers, powerbanks to charge our phones/ cams, SNACKS etc)

Safety is of course our number one priority that‚Äôs why we chose for a very well known tour operator with many years of experience and great guides who will make sure we’re safe, for the Mont Blanc the ratio is¬† 2 climbers / 1 guide and all other tours during this expedition ¬†4 climbers/ 1 guide.

Day 6 ( Saturday, July 22, 2017) Ascent Tete Rousse ( 3167m)

After breakfast we depart to¬†Les Houches where we‚Äôll take the cable car to Nid d‚ÄôAigle ¬†( “Eagle‚Äôs nest” 2372m), this is where the hike to Refuge de Tete Rousse (3167m) starts. The trail then¬†passes rough boulder-strewn terrain and snow patches. After approx. 3 hours we should arrive at Refuge Tete Rousse ( 3167m). Once there our guides will discuss¬†the strategy for the next day(s) over dinner and if the weather forecast is on our side, we’ll climb to the top of Mont Blanc the very next day!

Day 7 ( Sunday, July 23, 2017) Summit Day!

All fingers crossed today for good weather and a safe ascent to Mont Blanc!

Rise and shine at 1 AM ( ūüėČ this will be a 10-12h climbing day!!!) A quick bite, drink and off we go, out into the cold dark ( usually -5 to -10 degrees in July), attached to ropes, on our way to the goal, the top of Mont Blanc.

We’ll use¬†headlamps that give just enough light to see where we can carefully place our feet. Via the steep Gran Couloir ( yes, we’ll do ¬†the “gulley” in complete darkness besides a tiny lamp on my forehead!)¬†and attached to ropes we‚Äôll climb up to Aiguille du Gouter ¬† ¬† ¬† ( 3817m) for ¬†a quick break at Refuge du Gouter before moving on to the glacier. If we‚Äôre on schedule the sun should be¬†coming up slowly behind the mountain range at this point¬†and we‚Äôll finally see our goal¬†– the summit.

The next part of our route runs from Dome de Gouter (4300m) to the Vallot shelter (an emergency bivouac that sleeps up to 12 climbers) , from there it’s ¬†‚Äúonly‚ÄĚ 400m climbing over the very narrow ice ridge ‚ÄúArete des Bosses‚ÄĚ ( picture that crazy ridge of Gran Paradiso but then with snow ūüėČ ) to the top of Mont Blanc ( 4810m).

Once we‚Äôll reach the summit¬†we should be able to enjoy a breathtaking panorama view and you bet we take some pics, I might even try to livestream on Facebook ūüôā

Afterwards we return to the Gouter hut ( approx. 3800m) for¬†some well deserved rest and a good night’s sleep.

Day 8 ( Monday, July 24, 2017) extra day for Mont Blanc 

This is an extra day in case we couldn‚Äôt attempt to climb¬†the summit due to bad weather, Mont Blanc is known for its almost unpredictable weather and especially strong winds. From the Gouter hut it‚Äôs ‚Äúonly‚ÄĚ a 1000m climb, an advantage and¬†great chance for a second summit attempt.

Otherwise/ and this will be the day we descent to Chamonix and we should arrive at the chalet in the afternoon. Finally time for a shower ( will be the first one in DAYS) , fresh clothes, a delicious meal, for sure some wine and time to reflect and CELEBRATE.

Celebrate us, our personal, small win against our fears and MS but hopefully also that we hit our fundraising goal for “Study Y” to get a step closer to understanding this disease.

Day 9 ( Tuesday, July 25, 2017) 

A last breakfast with the team before¬†heading back to Amsterdam in the early afternoon. We’re all booked on the same flights so there better be a welcome committee waiting at the arrival hall ¬†ūüėČ






Ice ice baby

Yes, you might think I’m¬†weird but I LOVE the cold. My body feels pretty much “normal” in the cold and my mind is super sharp. Even more so after my first Wim Hof workshop where I¬†learned the basic breathing and meditation exercises to relax and stay calm during the cold exposure aka ice bath.

Let it go, let it goooo…yes, I truly felt like Elsa and couldn’t stop smiling in that bath ūüôā

There’re so many benefits associated with cold exposure, it decreases inflammation, enhances nervous system health, strengthens your immune and cardio vascular system, makes you sleep better and can help you drop a few pounds, just to name a few. Not too bad for a bit of cold exposure each day, is it? It sounds crazy but Wim can actually control¬†his own immune system and there are currently studies going on to prove it will help ( psst…maybe even halt/ cure) autoimmune disease. Considered all these facts I’m more than happy to finish my morning showers with a minute or two of cold water, this is an ongoing self-experiment.

I actually¬†felt so good, healthy and¬†happy after my first ice bath/ cold showers that I decided to push my limits a bit further and try out a whole body cryotherapy session at FreezLab a few days later. At FreezLab, you walk into a cabin that looks a bit like a traditional steam room BUT¬†the temperature is -111 ¬†C/ -168 F, wohoo. I loved it, especially the background music inside the cold¬†cabin as they played Kool & The Gang “She’s so fresh” , perfect! Thanks to a bit of dancing the 3 min went by in no time and I must say, -111C of dry cold felt less cold than ice water. I’ll definitely return for more sessions.

I also did¬†my first “urban test hike” with a heavy backpack, 8km with a 7-8kg load in torrential rain and I already learned a few things. The most important lesson learned¬†-NEVER, never try to squat over a public toilet with a heavy load on your back, just don’t ūüėČ ¬†Hopefully I’ll have some quiet time next week to get my “real” 30-40l expedition backpack to practise with.

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It was a bit (understatement) ¬†of a hectic week and I felt totally overwhelmed as so much is going on right now and needs to be planned. It was that bad that I forgot to boil the water for my oatmeal¬†on Friday morning and wondered why it was cold so I decided to have another hot coffee but I forgot to place a cup under the¬†machine….brain chaos, time for an EMERGENCY break so I spent the entire weekend home in “hermit mode” to calm down, relax and make plans and to do lists. I just need a daily structure in my life as my attention span is like 5 seconds or I’ll end up doing all kind of things but the ones I should do, especially now that I’ll start with the physical training for Mont Blanc and that means I’ll be working out¬†almost every day.

This will most likely be my fittest year ever and I’m so grateful to be part of this adventure and hopefully raise more than enough funds for Study Y as it’s very close to my heart.

Wishing you all a good week ahead, x



‚ÄúWhen we embrace the cold, this is when magic happens.‚ÄĚ

– Wim Hof