Happy diagnosiversary – lucky number 7

Seven has always been my lucky number ( plus 17 as I’m born on July 17 😉 )  and this is exactly how I feel today, on my 7th MS diagnosis anniversary.

Lucky. Blessed. Grateful.

Then again…believe the diagnosis and NOT the prognosis 🙂

My world as I knew it  collapsed when I heard “you have MS” on June 25 2012. That summer I had a very aggressive MS relapse and the number of active lesions in my brain/ spine went from 8 to “we didn’t bother counting them” within 6 short weeks. The prognosis didn’t look good, initial EDSS was 3.5, my entire body was numb, I couldn’t feel the difference between hot and cold water, my right arm and hand were so weak it was impossible to hold anything. But that was all nothing compared to the fatigue I experienced.

I’m so so grateful for my “health” each and every day. Not even in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that things would turn around from where I’ve been 7 years ago – to be able to experience all those moments in the past 12 ( 24) months.

As you’ve most likely noticed I don’t really blog anymore these days and only use my Stumbling Princess Instagram account but as this is another important milestone I felt it definitely deserves a good old blog post.

Let me quickly recap what happened in the past 12 months – I couldn’t stop smiling ( or let’s say laughing ) when I selected the following pics to document what I’ve been up to this past year as no one would have ever thought I could do these things again considering my initial diagnosis – or even enjoy doing them.

You gotta love life, you can’t make this stuff up, lol.

3 – 2 – 1 – Here we go, wohoo!

Juli 2018- September 2018

Thank you Courtney, trainers and fellow workout buddies at F45 Frederiksplein, F45 truly is “team training , life changing” and I love being part of this community. Can you imagine they dedicated their first anniversary to me and MS research? The F45 community collected donations for Mission Summit to support Project Y at Amsterdam UMC not only on the big day itself – but all week long! Thank you again to everyone who donated to this cause that is so close to my heart ❤

My first F45 Challenge! I lost 7.7kg ( see, 7 is my number) , 10% body fat, gained muscle, got super fit and a nice little six pack. I started to workout almost daily and noticed the more and harder I work out, the better I feel. If I live like an athlete in terms of training, nutrition and lifestyle I hardly have any MS symptoms.

I also (kick) boxed a lot during these months and took my first hot power yoga class, something I never tried as the typical MS health “recommendations” say heat and MS don’t mix well. Glad I went to this class as it was the beginning of a new adventure.

I even won the second place of the F45 Challenge and got 3 months membership for free – so went back for more and signed up for yet another 8 week challenge.

September 2018

Since 2012 September means one thing to me: MRI.

No matter how often I’ve been there, it’ll always be a bit nerve wracking as I usually have to wait a week for the results. That’s actually also the only time of the year I see my neurologist at the VUmc MS Center – he shares the results and usually can’t wait to hear what ( unusual) things I’ve been up to the past 12 months.

It was yet another stable MRI! My neurologist agreed to not use any contrast fluid ( very bad for you ) this year and even better – he told me if my upcoming MRI is clean again, I won’t need to come for yearly MRI’s anymore but only every other year! So fingers crossed for September 16 please, I’m busy manifesting yet another perfect MRI 🙂

After the MRI/ waiting game we went straight to Italy for a week of hiking around the beautiful Lake Lugano and I must have been on every surrounding peak as I couldn’t get enough of the mountains and unspoilt views.

October – December 2018

I’ve finished my second F45 Challenge and officially arrived in the muscle/ fat “athlete” category! What an interesting experience to see your body transform in ways you thought weren’t possible, especially in such a short time and considering all those “labels” like MS and age. I get so much energy from my workouts that I never have to push myself to exercise – I always love to train and am so grateful that I can as I remember the times I couldn’t even cycle for more than 2 mins at the physio’s practice before my body started to strike.

Yoga became more and more part of my schedule which at first was very confusing to me as, until then, I never really enjoyed it and used to be quite bored…but then I tried hot power yoga and I had no choice but to surrender to the heat and yoga.

January- February 2019

Another long “healing through adventure” trip!

This time we traveled around Vietnam and Laos, tried to not get hit by scooters in Hanoi’s crazy traffic, did some ( foggy & muddy) trekking in Sapa, enjoyed incredible sunsets in Luang Prabang, cycled along  Trang An river in the picturesque Ninh Binh area.

My highlight was the 3 day Tiger Cave Adventure in Phong Nha-Ke Bang National Park, home to the largest caves in the world. Not only did I experience how dense a jungle really is and how hungry leeches are – we also hiked, climbed and swam through several caves. By doing so I also traumatised myself a little during one incident when I was all of a sudden fully aware that I’m in the middle of nowhere, deep inside the earth, the next road is a full day jungle hike away and I’m abseiling on a wet, slippery rock inside a cave so huge no torch light can make it all the way to the bottom. Yep, that was definitely my scariest moment in the past 12 months.

But for the rest I felt like my funny self during this trip 😉

March – May 2019

I couldn’t help but giving in to the wish to deepen my own yoga practice so I signed up for a 200h Vinyasa Yoga Teacher Training at Equal Yoga, the studio that made me fall in love with ( hot power) yoga.

I’m so grateful I got to learn so much about yoga, the philosophy, the asanas, ayurveda – but most of all for how that experience – and yoga magic – made me “feel”.

My YTT family – thank you for accepting me as I am, I really felt “equal” at Equal Yoga and not like the “oldest student with MS”. I’m so grateful for my teachers and new friendships with fellow students. Turns out I can open up and “feel” again as I was the one crying ( not out of sadness but joy and pure awe) during our very first meditation on day one and also “closed the circle” after our final savashana together as I made everyone cry.

All of this just happened a little over a month ago and I’m still in the phase of letting it all sink in but I’d love to follow further workshops and trainings in the next year(s), especially everything yoga therapy/ healing and breathwork related.

That was my yearly review in a nutshell. 7 years, wow.

As every single day in the past 12 months I woke up feeling very grateful for what I have and especially for the love and support I receive. Thank you to my “inner circle” aka my parents, Mr. X, Ruby, besties and close friends but also to all those beautiful, inspiring people I’ve met the past months.

I’m really excited what the future holds, bring on the next 12 months 🙂

xoxo from Amsterdam, Anja

Aya- WHAT?!?


Not to be confused with ayurveda, these are two completely different things 😉

In case you never heard of it, ayahuasca is a  sacred plant spirit medicine and hallucinogenic brew ( containing DMT, hence classified a “drug” in many countries but that’s definitely not how I  see it) made out of a vine and other plant based ingredients. It is used in traditional spiritual ceremonies among the indigenous people of the Amazon basin for at least 5000 years to heal all kinds of disease.

Many believe it is the greatest natural healing agent there is, that’s why  thousands  of people with terminal or chronic disease, cancer,  addictions, depressions or traumas visit the Amazon each year to try out ayahuasca for some kind of relief or healing. More and more Western style “clinics” open for special ayahuasca retreats, there has been an alternative medicine tourism boom in recent years and it seems to be even a strong competition for the Machu Picchu in the years coming.

I don’t want to go too much into my own “research” details in this post ( or it’ll be the longest post in history, crashing the entire WordPress server 😉 ) but it looks as if ayahuasca might have not only a very positive influence on the CNS and inflammations BUT even play a key role in neuroregeneration.

WOW, wouldn’t it be great if a “plant” could actually fix what’s damaged in our (MS) brains?

There seem to be so many benefits it would be a shame not to try some sort of “healing” with ayahuasca. I believe that there are actually plenty of “cures”  out there in nature that are used by indigenous people for ages and we simply don’t know about it or – we’re not told as it’s not profitable for the “big players” , especially if we could all grow our own medicine. HA!

According to this fab article in the New Yorker, Ayahuasca is the drug of choice for the “age of kale” ( which made me laugh so hard as I think  it’s totally  true!)

“Ayahuasca, like kale, is no joy ride. The majority of users vomit—or, as they prefer to say, “purge.” And that’s the easy part. “Ayahuasca takes you to the swampland of your soul,” Like juicing—another Kale Age method of expedient renewal—ayahuasca is appreciated for its efficiency. Enthusiasts often say that each trip is like ten years of therapy or meditation.

The first time I heard about ayahuasca was about 3 years ago and I was stunned. First of all, why didn’t I ever hear anything about it and second of all, this might be THE “medicine” for the time being. I read everything I could find, watched a lot of documentaries and read the testimonials of people who felt way better or even “healed” from all kinds of diseases thanks to ayahuasca.

It looks like this year the first FDA approved trial to treat depression with ayahuasca will start but there are even a few more waiting for the official trial process and looking into everything from PTSD treatment to addictions.

Ayahuasca is becoming more and more knows, even Netflix has a FEW documentaries ( and a “Chelsea does…” episode)  on it and according to some articles I read there must be a real boom and ayahuasca ceremonies any given night in all major cities around the world.  It’s even possible to do it here in the Netherlands as it’s legal because of the freedom of religion. Sometimes I feel  like I’m one of the last people on this planet getting to experience it as everyone I told about it has done it or knows at least 5 people that have done it and ALL of them had a great, mostly  life changing experience once out of the dark “swampland of the soul”.

The ayahuasca brew must taste like the worst thing there is and chances are high that you’ll have a hard time, facing your worst fears, living through you worst emotions and nightmares again, not to mention the “purging” ( vomiting) and most likely even s*** your pants. The “ceremony” itself must be one of the most terrifying things there is and that’s what kept me away.

Until now.

I’ve never experienced with other “drugs” than alcohol, I guess a Jägerbomb must have been the craziest thing I  did in my life and if you know me personally or follow my blog, I can’t even handle the other plant medicine, marijuana,  without getting an anxiety attack ( blog post about that self-experiment 😉 )   as I hate the feeling of losing control. Here, I said it, I’m still a complete control freak and perfectionists and it’s soooo hard to let go of these things.

Now – guess who will be sitting in a ceremonial “maloca” ( ceremonial hut ), most likely “purging” all the time,  in the Peruvian Amazon with a very experienced group of Shipibo shamans in 3 weeks?

Yep. Yours truly. The control freak – and Mr. X, this will be a great relationship test, lol.

All for the sake of self-experimenting as everything I researched about ayahuasca over the past  years sounds too good to be true that even the uncomfortable part doesn’t scare me away anymore.

We will actually start our 4 week trip to Peru with a 9 day ayahuasca retreat and 4 (!!)  ceremonies – if it is true that each session is like 10 years of therapy/ meditation I should be (hopefully)  done after that ( as I’m only 38 😉 ) but I am completely aware that I also need to “work” on many issues while there and  in the future.


To get the most out of the ayahuasca medicine, you need to follow a special “dieta” for at least 2 weeks prior and a few days after the retreat. On top of that ( hello old overachiever 😉 )  I already started  a “Whole 30” reset 2 weeks ago, didn’t drink any alcohol for 3 weeks and will start with the real ayahuasca “dieta” next Sunday.  Luckily my normal diet is pretty close to it as the dieta allows fish and eggs but no (red) meat, no dairy, no sugar, no fried food and no gluten. On top of that is a long list of other no no’s like coffee, black pepper, avocado, spinach or pineapple to name a few.

But the dieta doesn’t only concern food – our “mind” needs to be “clean” as well so mainstream media, negative- feeling movies/ books/ posts/ people and social media need to be considered, too.  I already unfollowed people who always share negative or passive-aggressive posts on Facebook as I really can’t and won’t deal with that energy anymore as I feel it’s  pulling me down.

The last part of the dieta, a technical one, will happen during the retreat as there’s NO reception and NO wifi, we also shouldn’t use technical devices while on the retreat and just BE in the Amazon.

Just BE ourselves. Our true selves.

We’ll start our retreat at Nimea Kaya Healing Center on Feb 26 and if you’re wondering what we do there for 9 days next to “purging” , overcoming and healing there’s a whole program set up, from plant walks and helping with brewing the ayahuasca we will be using for the ceremonies, meditation, yoga, floral baths, super healthy dieta meals, visits to the local community and a school the retreat supports to integration circles and painting.

I feel I’m  in very good hands with this center and they have already treated a few MS patients. The only concern they had was my MS drug as of course – you shouldn’t take any drugs/ medications or even supplements while on the “dieta” and some ( like antidepressants, any SSRI´s and MAOI’s) are dangerous or even lethal when mixed with ayahuasca. The staff is great, they checked all ingredients of Tecfidera and although they’d rather have me not take it while there, we found a compromise that I won’t be taking the evening dosage on the 4 nights of the ayahuasca ceremony.  ( and yes, I even got it double checked so it’s save )

My main intention for the retreat is to “heal” and learn how to fully “love myself” and in my opinion, these two are one.

We cannot heal without (self) love.

I personally believe that emotional blockages and traumas make us sick, all the “stuff” that happened to us along the way and we simply pushed it away for too long. I know that a lot of pain will come up during the ceremonies and that I might have to “relive” certain  situations and memories.

I meditate a lot and learned the past 1.5 years that how I emotionally feel directly affects my health.

Autoimmune diseases are like a non stop friendly fire, I basically attack myself all the time. Next to MS I was diagnosed with  two additional chronic/ autoimmune disease without a known cause ( granuloma annulare dx 1991 and endometriosis dx 2003) that appeared after  emotional or very stressful life events. Most fellow MS patients I know have at least one more autoimmune disease.

These “friendly fires” inside my body  I  link directly to that self love issue  and I think that’s why way more woman than men suffer from autoimmune disease. It’s getting harder and harder as a woman to keep up with the “standards” and being a perfectionist doesn’t help.

All the things I “must” be.

We women “must” have the perfect career, relationships, families, looks, bodies – you name it. I’m curious to see what will happen the next decade, autoimmune disease must explode thanks to our society and especially social media.

Time to heal myself from these thoughts and social constructs and start living my life.

MY life.

Finishing this post with some of my favourite ayahuasca videos, from science to the real experience if you got curious.


Happy & healthy 2018!


Happy and Healthy(tier) New Year to you!

A little late as my MacBook decided to give me the “blue” screen and stopped working a few days ago so here’s a short 2017 review via my phone.

I celebrated New Year’s Eve in one of my favourite cities, Istanbul, trip #4 in December after a short visit to Athens and Vilnius to tell my MS story followed by a trip “home” to my mum in Germany. Busy times!

Now I finally got some quiet time to reflect on 2017, one of the most intense & best years of my life so far and I already have a plan in place to make 2018 even more spectacular and healing 😉

I’m thankful for the experience I gained as team member of Mission Summit and our attempt to climb Mont Blanc as the first MS team. If you follow me on Social Media you already know that we had to return after a night at the Tete Rousse hut ( 3167m) because of severe weather. As I trained months for this event I was somewhat disappointed but also know all the hard training paid off. I’m definitely getting fitter the older I get 😉 I also had a small emotional breakdown climbing up to that last hut as I remembered where I’ve been on this very day 5 years ago – in neurological rehab, sleeping 18 hours a day and most likely doing water gymnastics with a right arm that didn’t cooperate – well, I could not even hold my cutlery and there I was, climbing the highest mountain in the Alps. CRAZY! I learned so much about my body during that time, especially that I can really push way harder than I thought.

Mission Summit is planning another expedition in November 2018 – this time to climb one of the “7 Summit”, Mount Kilimanjaro – and of course I’m thinking about joining, it’s great to have a goal to train for  😉

The intense summer didn’t end there – shortly after I returned from the expedition it turned out that I have a bit of skin cancer  ( the “old people” kind, a basal cell carcinoma) on my collar bone. Bummer, but life goes on and it was luckily nothing dramatic.

My surgery was scheduled right after my yearly MRI that turned out to be fabulous – stable, no new lesions and last years “surprise lesion” was hardly to see so I think I’m on the right track with my DMD  and my mix of meditation, breath work, sound journeys, exercise, diet, supplements and so on paid off.

The mini surgery was quick and easy, the only real downside was that I couldn’t  do CrossFit or heavy weight lifting for a while. Stubborn as I am, I tried  ( of course 😉) and ripped each time a few stitches so in the end it took about 6 weeks until the scar healed a bit.

For the first 3 months of 2018 I got already a full plan in place as I need to train and prepare for my next “project” that will be both, a healing and adventure trip to Peru 🙌

Quick preview below and more to come in the next weeks but I can tell you already it’s going to be epic one way or another ( and for some a bit too extreme 😂 ).

I’m always busy making memories and this trip combines a few things I really, really wanted to try and do for many years.

As they say, all we have is NOW…


Mont Blanc climb itinerary

The countdown is on, only 3 months to go until the Mission Summit Mont Blanc 2017 expedition and I wanted to share our climbing itinerary with you.

On Sunday, July 16, 2017 we fly out from Amsterdam to Geneva, a day before the expedition officially starts to make sure we’re all well rested (no matter how “fit” we seem, travelling with MS still gets me every time so the more time to recover and to “arrive”, the better)

Day 1 ( Monday, July 17, 2017) Arrival in Chamonix ( and my birthday, wohoo!)

Day 2 ( Tuesday, July 18, 2017) Mer de Glace ( 2100m)

We will meet our guides, get the equipment ( like harness, crampons, ice pick but also the mountaineering boots that most of us rent as they are very $$$, fingers crossed they have a comfy pair that fits me) and take a train to Mer de Glace ( “sea of ice”, it’s the largest glacier in France, 200m deep and 7km long) for altitude training and to practise how to walk with crampons on the ice.

Day 3 ( Wednesday, July 19, 2017) Rifugio Vittorio Emanuele II ( 2735m)

Leaving for Aosta Valley in Italy via the Mont Blanc tunnel ( approximate travel time 2h) where we’ll start a heavy 3h long hike to Rifugio Vittorio Emanuele II, a traditional Italian mountain hut first build in 1884 and as I was told, loved by sociable Italians who like to share their climbing adventures till late at night over a glass of red wine or two ( I already  like that part very much or at least the idea as I guess I won’t be drinking 😉 ) – except the climbers who plan to summit the highest mountain in Italy early the following day which is the Monte Bianco aka Italian side of Mont Blanc.

Day 4 ( Thursday, July 20, 2017) Ascent to Gran Paradiso ( 4061m) 

We’ll start our climb up the Gran Paradiso ( highest mountain entirely within Italy)  by moonlight. The first hour of the tour is going to be tricky as we need to make our way through a very rocky terrain with big boulders. By sunrise we’ll attach our crampons and harnesses that connect us to the rope. Safety first!  ( I hope it won’t be too scary, that’s why I’m already busy with taking climbing classes each Monday). The route leads us right over the glacier  and the higher we climb, the steeper and tougher it gets (hmm).

Once the sun is up we will hopefully have a great view to make up for all the hard work! After climbing a couple of hours we get a first glimpse of the top of Gran Paradiso. The last 100m to the summit ask for a lot of focus and concentration as we’ll reach the top over a very steep ridge of rocks – I guess by then everyone will know for sure if they are afraid of heights or not. ( After watching this video I’m not so sure of it anymore, kind of made me dizzy but I’ll find out!).

On top there’ll be a picturesque 360-degree view on the Alps famous mountain range – if the weather plays along.

Descent  into the valley using the same (very steep and very scary)  route , a quick stop at the hut for some food ( and most likely a sneaky sip of vino) and back to Chamonix/ France where we’ll arrive around dinner time.

Day 5 ( Friday, July 21, 2017) REST

Rest from the last couple of days, we can chill out at the chalet or explore Chamonix for a bit. This rest day is extremely important to recover from climbing the top of Gran Paradiso  ( 4061m)  before we attempt to climb Mont Blanc ( as you know, most of us climbers have MS so rest is very important)

In the afternoon we’ll practise again some more rock climbing techniques for the ascent of the very steep Grand Couloir ( “large gulley”) at a local climbing garden. This spot is well known for accidents and notorious for falling rocks so it’s vital to learn some extra safety rules. It’s really the most dangerous part of the ascent/ descent and to be honest, I really fear and respect the “gulley”.

After the training we’ll have a meeting with the guides to discuss the strategy for the next days, build the climbing teams ( teams of 2 climbers and 1 guide), get further advice and check what needs to be in the backpacks for the following days during the ascent ( hard shell clothes, extra warm layers, powerbanks to charge our phones/ cams, SNACKS etc)

Safety is of course our number one priority that’s why we chose for a very well known tour operator with many years of experience and great guides who will make sure we’re safe, for the Mont Blanc the ratio is  2 climbers / 1 guide and all other tours during this expedition  4 climbers/ 1 guide.

Day 6 ( Saturday, July 22, 2017) Ascent Tete Rousse ( 3167m)

After breakfast we depart to Les Houches where we’ll take the cable car to Nid d’Aigle  ( “Eagle’s nest” 2372m), this is where the hike to Refuge de Tete Rousse (3167m) starts. The trail then passes rough boulder-strewn terrain and snow patches. After approx. 3 hours we should arrive at Refuge Tete Rousse ( 3167m). Once there our guides will discuss the strategy for the next day(s) over dinner and if the weather forecast is on our side, we’ll climb to the top of Mont Blanc the very next day!

Day 7 ( Sunday, July 23, 2017) Summit Day!

All fingers crossed today for good weather and a safe ascent to Mont Blanc!

Rise and shine at 1 AM ( 😉 this will be a 10-12h climbing day!!!) A quick bite, drink and off we go, out into the cold dark ( usually -5 to -10 degrees in July), attached to ropes, on our way to the goal, the top of Mont Blanc.

We’ll use headlamps that give just enough light to see where we can carefully place our feet. Via the steep Gran Couloir ( yes, we’ll do  the “gulley” in complete darkness besides a tiny lamp on my forehead!) and attached to ropes we’ll climb up to Aiguille du Gouter       ( 3817m) for  a quick break at Refuge du Gouter before moving on to the glacier. If we’re on schedule the sun should be coming up slowly behind the mountain range at this point and we’ll finally see our goal – the summit.

The next part of our route runs from Dome de Gouter (4300m) to the Vallot shelter (an emergency bivouac that sleeps up to 12 climbers) , from there it’s  “only” 400m climbing over the very narrow ice ridge “Arete des Bosses” ( picture that crazy ridge of Gran Paradiso but then with snow 😉 ) to the top of Mont Blanc ( 4810m).

Once we’ll reach the summit we should be able to enjoy a breathtaking panorama view and you bet we take some pics, I might even try to livestream on Facebook 🙂

Afterwards we return to the Gouter hut ( approx. 3800m) for some well deserved rest and a good night’s sleep.

Day 8 ( Monday, July 24, 2017) extra day for Mont Blanc 

This is an extra day in case we couldn’t attempt to climb the summit due to bad weather, Mont Blanc is known for its almost unpredictable weather and especially strong winds. From the Gouter hut it’s “only” a 1000m climb, an advantage and great chance for a second summit attempt.

Otherwise/ and this will be the day we descent to Chamonix and we should arrive at the chalet in the afternoon. Finally time for a shower ( will be the first one in DAYS) , fresh clothes, a delicious meal, for sure some wine and time to reflect and CELEBRATE.

Celebrate us, our personal, small win against our fears and MS but hopefully also that we hit our fundraising goal for “Study Y” to get a step closer to understanding this disease.

Day 9 ( Tuesday, July 25, 2017) 

A last breakfast with the team before heading back to Amsterdam in the early afternoon. We’re all booked on the same flights so there better be a welcome committee waiting at the arrival hall  😉






Ice ice baby

Yes, you might think I’m weird but I LOVE the cold. My body feels pretty much “normal” in the cold and my mind is super sharp. Even more so after my first Wim Hof workshop where I learned the basic breathing and meditation exercises to relax and stay calm during the cold exposure aka ice bath.

Let it go, let it goooo…yes, I truly felt like Elsa and couldn’t stop smiling in that bath 🙂

There’re so many benefits associated with cold exposure, it decreases inflammation, enhances nervous system health, strengthens your immune and cardio vascular system, makes you sleep better and can help you drop a few pounds, just to name a few. Not too bad for a bit of cold exposure each day, is it? It sounds crazy but Wim can actually control his own immune system and there are currently studies going on to prove it will help ( psst…maybe even halt/ cure) autoimmune disease. Considered all these facts I’m more than happy to finish my morning showers with a minute or two of cold water, this is an ongoing self-experiment.

I actually felt so good, healthy and happy after my first ice bath/ cold showers that I decided to push my limits a bit further and try out a whole body cryotherapy session at FreezLab a few days later. At FreezLab, you walk into a cabin that looks a bit like a traditional steam room BUT the temperature is -111  C/ -168 F, wohoo. I loved it, especially the background music inside the cold cabin as they played Kool & The Gang “She’s so fresh” , perfect! Thanks to a bit of dancing the 3 min went by in no time and I must say, -111C of dry cold felt less cold than ice water. I’ll definitely return for more sessions.

I also did my first “urban test hike” with a heavy backpack, 8km with a 7-8kg load in torrential rain and I already learned a few things. The most important lesson learned -NEVER, never try to squat over a public toilet with a heavy load on your back, just don’t 😉  Hopefully I’ll have some quiet time next week to get my “real” 30-40l expedition backpack to practise with.

Blog ice ice baby

It was a bit (understatement)  of a hectic week and I felt totally overwhelmed as so much is going on right now and needs to be planned. It was that bad that I forgot to boil the water for my oatmeal on Friday morning and wondered why it was cold so I decided to have another hot coffee but I forgot to place a cup under the machine….brain chaos, time for an EMERGENCY break so I spent the entire weekend home in “hermit mode” to calm down, relax and make plans and to do lists. I just need a daily structure in my life as my attention span is like 5 seconds or I’ll end up doing all kind of things but the ones I should do, especially now that I’ll start with the physical training for Mont Blanc and that means I’ll be working out almost every day.

This will most likely be my fittest year ever and I’m so grateful to be part of this adventure and hopefully raise more than enough funds for Study Y as it’s very close to my heart.

Wishing you all a good week ahead, x



“When we embrace the cold, this is when magic happens.”

– Wim Hof